MIA

Ok I stopped the diet, the blog, the whole thing for what a week? Yep, I got mad, and failed and was starving and could not do it and I just quit all together. I have stress from my current boyfriend, my financial status, and my ex husband. How much can a woman take, and I have 4 kids on top of it all who love to eat yummy food.

But there is good news. I don't know what happen but this week, 3 days ago, on Tuesday, July 24, 2012, I decided I would try again. So I woke up, drank a shake, lunch came I drank a shake, dinner came, I ate a small dinner of about 300 calories.

The next day came, I drank a shake, lunch came I drank a shake, dinner came and everyone wanted pizza, I ordered Papa Johns, and I did not eat one piece. Go Wendy, Go Wendy!

Then yesterday came, I drank a shake for breakfast, then lunch and I drank a shake, then I went to Walmart and I got groceries, and no chocolate. For dinner, I ate one of the left over pieces of pizza from the night before and that was it.

Holy cow, I woke up this morning and I had to weigh. Could it be? Is this actually going to work for me?

I was down 7 1/2 pounds in 3 days.

So I am pumped and excited and ready. I feel so good just being able to say I did it for 3 days without breaking it at all.

I think it is a mind game you play with yourself. I really believe in order to lose weight you have to put all the other things in your life away, and focus on just that when you need too. Worry about the other things when the time is right for those things.

I found that making my shakes fast and easy was a plus for me. I love using the specialty creamers in my shakes. It gives them the flavors I want but I don't have to spend 15 minutes making a shake. I literally make my shake in 5 min.

Ok so now that I finally got it. Let's see where this takes me.

Check this out. This is 6 pounds of fat. I lost 7 1/2 pounds. When you look at it this way it makes it so much cooler.

Seeing a difference, and drinking tea

I'm sitting at my desk and I am looking at my stomach and could it be, that my fat roll is not sticking out as much as before. Well, that is exciting.

Now I know it's important to drink water. But yesterday I almost got sick trying to drink a lot of water. So today I am going to try something a little different.

My mom is a Dr. Oz fan, and I guess I am a little. He encourages you to drink tea. ok I read up on what he recommends.


Bilberry Tea is one tea recommended. 

Bilberry Tea helps to kill cravings during dinnertime. Its savory sweet flavor balances blood sugar. Bilberry tea also contains antioxidants and comes from a plant that resembles a blueberry. 

Well I decided to make a pitcher of this tea, using stevia, and drink it over ice. I have to say it was really good. Now the question is will it help with cravings. I shall let you know. 

Breakfast Day 2

Well, I have to say I out did myself on this mornings shake. I did the almond joy again but used a chocolate flavor packet. Wow it was so good I could have drank 2.

Now I have to share with you how impressed I was with myself this morning. My daughter woke up, I went in to fix her a bowl of cereal, and of course she saw the doughnuts that arrived last night, and asked for one. I opened the box, picked one up, handed it to her, and washed my hands. Now that's not the cool part. The coolest part was, I did not even think about eating one, or even licking my fingers.

Stop the press folks. This is front page news.

Dinner and a....I can't say it!

Well, I am sad to report, that dinner came around, and I did not do as good as I had hoped. I was so hungry by the time it got here I wanted to eat the house. I went to the grocery store, did not buy any candy, I was very proud of myself for that, well wait I bought doughnuts. (for the kids of course....yeah right)

THen the kids begged me for KFC. Well, ok maybe if I bought food then it would be easier for me rather than cook it. Nope, the smell all the way home of KFC made me want to rip into that box of chicken like a cat with rabies. It smelled so good. I was so hungry. So I thought it's ok Wendy, just eat a small piece, and a little fixens and you will be ok. So I got a breast, pulled off the skin, a small scoop of potatoes, and mac and cheese, a biscuit, and I made some sweet peas for myself thinking since they were low in calories if I ate that I could fill up more on those than the fattening stuff.

I ate, I ate slow, I enjoyed every mouth watering bite that went into my mouth. It was so good.

After I cleaned my plate, and yes I all but licked my plate, I decided maybe just a few bites more.

Not too bad, I guess.

I still drank 2 shakes, did not break it once during the day, and probably had just a few too many calories and fat grams at night. But hey, I'm not going to put myself down too much, I mean I used to eat probably 5000 calories a day, so keeping it below 2000 I think is pretty good.

Now I can't lie beacause I promised myself if I was going to do this blog I would be honest with those reading it and myself.

Remember the doughnuts? Well, I never could find them after we got home. I just wanted a bite. I actually think I could have taken a bite and been done. But no, the doughnuts disappeared. Well the heck did they go? I searched the van, the kitchen, the kids room. I wanted a bite of doughnut and the doughnuts could not be found. You would have thought I had just lost one of my kids the way I was searching through the house for this little box of chocolate doughnuts. I threatened the kids if they took them and did not tell me where they were, I called the store to see if the guy forgot to put them in my buggy. I was losing my mind over a sill doughnut.

Well, a very nice friend of mine decided that since he had heard of my heartache of losing my doughnuts, he would surprise me with a dozen Krispy Kreme Chocolate Glazed Doughnuts. I guess I forgot to tell him I was trying to be on a diet. Well, I could not be mean, so I gladly accepted the doughnuts for my children sake. They were so upset when we could not find the ones from the grocery store. Yeah right! The kids wanted a doughnut but when they went missing they went on about their business. Unlike their mommy who went into stupid mode for chocolate.

Well if your wondering did I eat one before going to bed. Yeah I did, I ate 2. bad me. I know. But I feel good about today, and I am ready for the challenge.

I'm taking baby steps today and going to try my best to do it just right. All I know is I gotta get some fruit.

I guess it's breakfast, so off to the kitchen to make a shake. What kind shall I make? I will be back to share later.

Having a hard time

Ok so about 3 pm, it hit me I'm starving. So what do I do? Well, I had nothing in this house to snack on that was healthy, no apples, bananas, anything healthy. I guess you could say I was not exactly prepared. So what could I do to help me get through the afternoon into the evening that would help me stop being so hungry?

Package of instant oatmeal with a little flax seed and wheat germ? Well, why not. About 200 calories. More than I really wanted to eat but it's better than breaking it, and scarfing down a whole pizza....right?

So about 3:30 I ate a bowl of oatmeal. I hope I did not ruin my day by doing that. I feel like I might have cheated a little. But I guess when your used to eating everything that doesn't move you have to start slow. Plus my headache is getting worse. I guess no sugar and caffeine is hitting me hard.

I am looking forward to dinner. I plan on eating around 6. Bad thing is I have to run to the store to pick up a few things and I know that when I pass that candy isle it's going to be hard. But I am going to do it or die trying.

2 more hours to go

Lunch, will I do it, or fail?

Well, failing isn't and option but it's still so easy to do. So it's lunch, now what? Well, I'm supposed to drink a shake, and I have to say I have a headache. I am sure it's because my body is actually enjoying something healthy and detoxing from the crap it's used to. No Dr. Pepper, no high fat foods. Just a healthy wonderful Vi Shake and water is all my body has had today.

So do I create a shake the same as the one I had for breakfast or do I do something different? I have no clue. All I know is I am getting hungry and I am getting nervous. The kids ate breakfast late,so they are not ready for lunch yet but will I be able to handle fixing them lunch without nibbling on the food? Ugggg, why does this have to be so hard?

So off to the kitchen to fix me up a shake. Be back soon to let you know what kind I had.

Ok I'm back almost an hour later. But I'm sitting here drinking a Almond Joy Shake again. I have to say it was harder than I thought. You see Sunday I grilled hamburgers and there was some left over. I saw them sitting in the refrigerator and started to make me a big juicy hamburger. But I reached for my almond milk instead and told myself I could do this and did it.

I guess there is one good thing about me when it comes to diets. If I drink a shake, I am scared to death to eat anything after that because I am so afraid I will turn into super moose and gain weight at a fast pace. I know they tell people who are underweight to drink a shake with their food so since I am not underweight, (that would be nice) I figured weight gain is not part of my 90 day program so let's drink a shake and leave it at that.

My hard part will be afternoon and evening. That's usually when I eat food like a camel drinking water. You know just before they go into the desert on a long trip. You might think I am in a contest for who can eat the most junk in one night. Hey! Ho! I would win. That's ok, you can keep the super eater trophy for someone else. I would rather have hottest body trophy instead.

So I will go, I'm going to enjoy sipping my shake and imagine my new hot body so I keep sipping and not think of the juicy hamburger in there. Oh wait, I should say that high fat gross, greasy hamburger that's going to ad to my fat rolls hamburger. Yeah that makes it better. Probably be about 500 calories and 50 grams of fat.

I have an even better idea. I will think of my hamburger as 1 pound of fat. And here's a picture to help me do it.

I did it!

Ok not too bad. I went into the kitchen, prepared bowls of yummy cereal for my kids, handed them out, and walked out. Who knew I could do that without tasting there cereal before handing it to them. Ya know when you have 4 kids after taking 2 bites of each bowl to make sure its good before handing it to them, you have already had a full serving.

Now, back in my office. Working. I own a business in NC, and I work online. So I get to sit, and do computer stuff. I even have a bottle of water to sip on. Yea me! And I am focused and motivated.

Oh and just in case you stumbled onto my blog and your wondering what the heck I am doing to lose all this fat, well you at least should check out my website at http://finallyfitu.myvi.net/

Join me if you want too, we can do this thing together. I always said 2012 was going to be my year but so far it has truly sucked. So now that we are half way through the crappy year, I think its time to change it to a amazing year.